Man, some days those are hard words to push past my lips. It is much easier for the Lord to forgive me because I am a shining rock of purity compared to the absolute miserable lowlifes I deal with. I mean, do I break into God's vehicle twice in one week? Exactly. God so has the better bargain.
Besides, God can do anything; I am a mere mortal. Way more is demanded of me, and that's hardly fair.
And not the point.
It is because I am mortal that I require constant forgiveness, and because I am surrounded and sustained by humans, I too must forgive constantly:
It's hard to maintain that attitude. I mentioned break-ins, my violation of property. But what about violation of self, or of our loved ones? Then, there are the hurts committed by those we love. Some are small; others are very nearly soul-destroying. All must be ultimately forgiven. Why?
If you are a Christian believer, the reason is to stay in God's favor, for there is nothing more isolating than to stand outside His good graces. There is another (perhaps, connected) motivation:
That is Connie's motivation in my June release, Building a Family. Connie doesn't need forgiveness from others for her past deeds but from herself. And she proves to be a rather unrelenting task master, undergoing humiliation and danger so that she can look herself in the eye and the eye of Ben, the man who always, always had the permanent attitude when it came to her.
For Connie, Ben's forgiveness is not enough. She sees it as a weakness on his part...and as a temptation on hers. How often have we asked for forgiveness and then repeated the same dumb thing? God knows...and that's not being flippant. I believe, like Connie, that repentance is necessary not for what it gives to others but for what it gives ourselves: the proof that we are worthy of love--God's love, human love, our own love.
Phew. That was heavy. Especially when we northerly folk are just trying to enjoy our solstice. (Thinking of you in Alaska, Beth Carpenter!)
So I'll end with a fun reminder that my giveaway is in its final days...
We write and you read to understand people and ourselves. So, the act of writing and the act of reading is really then, an act of forgiveness.
Happy reading, everyone!
M. K. Stelmack is the author of A True North Hero series set in the fictional Spirit Lake which is modeled on the small Alberta, Canada town where she lives in a house where pets outnumber the humans by almost three to one and the dust bunnies are the size of rodents. When she is not writing, she is reading, and when not doing those, she's hanging with family or friends, gardening, cooking, splashing, reading or finding new and interesting ways to avoid facing down the dust bunnies.